When I am sad, I always wanted to jock it down and remember the day. Im scared that I will forget this day. I will come here to write everything I need to say.
Weather: Raining.
The weather is horrible today and my mood feels the same. I went to see a doctor and I have a throat infection. I got myself some antibiotics. When I saw the jar, I wish I can swallow everything and died alone by the stairs near my apartment. I'm alone in my room crying and upset. Only my 80 years old Grandma will care for me. My mom doesn't respond anything back to me but I'm sure she's yelling at me on her mind. I wish I never existed.
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Friday, April 22, 2011
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Listening to: Michael Wong - Fairytale
I am very tired from work. I had a lot of fun at work. I hear jokes and I laugh till I lost my voice today. After coming home:
Is so sad that you can't find any family member who understands you or listen to you. I inform my mom that they may install webcam on my monitor to see my performance. My mom were upset and told me to go to work. I told her many times that I want to stay at home to avoid drama and rumors. she doesn't listen to me but keeps complaining. Where are my voices? Where is my courage? Where is me? I don't stand anywhere in this place. I'm even smaller than a bug or maybe I don't exist at all. I talk back at her and said I pay rent here and I can't stay here at my own home. This job pays rent. Everyone in my family thinks I'm wrong after saying it. How come they never think from my side? I will be monitor with a webcam for 9 hours and im the one who suffering and upset. No one cared. I see why I want to be single and alone. Just to avoid arguments and drama. More freedom.
I'm tired and I'm sick. My voice changed.
I hope I can find myself somewhere. I hope I can find my courage and pride back.
This is the longest saddest blog I ever written. I hope I can overcome this by tomorrow.
I am very tired from work. I had a lot of fun at work. I hear jokes and I laugh till I lost my voice today. After coming home:
Is so sad that you can't find any family member who understands you or listen to you. I inform my mom that they may install webcam on my monitor to see my performance. My mom were upset and told me to go to work. I told her many times that I want to stay at home to avoid drama and rumors. she doesn't listen to me but keeps complaining. Where are my voices? Where is my courage? Where is me? I don't stand anywhere in this place. I'm even smaller than a bug or maybe I don't exist at all. I talk back at her and said I pay rent here and I can't stay here at my own home. This job pays rent. Everyone in my family thinks I'm wrong after saying it. How come they never think from my side? I will be monitor with a webcam for 9 hours and im the one who suffering and upset. No one cared. I see why I want to be single and alone. Just to avoid arguments and drama. More freedom.
I'm tired and I'm sick. My voice changed.
I hope I can find myself somewhere. I hope I can find my courage and pride back.
This is the longest saddest blog I ever written. I hope I can overcome this by tomorrow.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Sorry for abandoning you.
I'm sorry Bloggy for abandoning you for a long time. I didn't know what to write or the day I'm going through is not interesting for me to jock it down at all
Bloggy, you probably think I am a boring person who works at home and then stay home to play with my nephews. I don't have much friends or a relationship that brighten my life. I will try to write this blog and keep you entertained Bloggy.
I am at Starbucks enjoying my iced white chocolate mocha. First, came up my mind was the shiny black jumbo Chanel handbag that I wanted. oh man. I am saving 20 dollars everyday to get the Chanel bag I wanted. That handbag will cost me 3k included tax. I have a long way to go. I have the cash with me to get the handbag but I don't want to use up my savings right away to get it. I will save it up slowly to get what I wanted.
60 / 3000 dollars. :[
Bloggy, you probably think I am a boring person who works at home and then stay home to play with my nephews. I don't have much friends or a relationship that brighten my life. I will try to write this blog and keep you entertained Bloggy.
I am at Starbucks enjoying my iced white chocolate mocha. First, came up my mind was the shiny black jumbo Chanel handbag that I wanted. oh man. I am saving 20 dollars everyday to get the Chanel bag I wanted. That handbag will cost me 3k included tax. I have a long way to go. I have the cash with me to get the handbag but I don't want to use up my savings right away to get it. I will save it up slowly to get what I wanted.
60 / 3000 dollars. :[
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