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When I am sad, I always wanted to jock it down and remember the day. Im scared that I will forget this day. I will come here to write everything I need to say.

Weather: Raining.
The weather is horrible today and my mood feels the same. I went to see a doctor and I have a throat infection. I got myself some antibiotics. When I saw the jar, I wish I can swallow everything and died alone by the stairs near my apartment. I'm alone in my room crying and upset. Only my 80 years old Grandma will care for me. My mom doesn't respond anything back to me but I'm sure she's yelling at me on her mind. I wish I never existed.