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Listening to: Michael Wong - Fairytale

I am very tired from work. I had a lot of fun at work. I hear jokes and I laugh till I lost my voice today. After coming home:

Is so sad that you can't find any family member who understands you or listen to you. I inform my mom that they may install webcam on my monitor to see my performance. My mom were upset and told me to go to work. I told her many times that I want to stay at home to avoid drama and rumors. she doesn't listen to me but keeps complaining. Where are my voices? Where is my courage? Where is me? I don't stand anywhere in this place. I'm even smaller than a bug or maybe I don't exist at all. I talk back at her and said I pay rent here and I can't stay here at my own home. This job pays rent. Everyone in my family thinks I'm wrong after saying it. How come they never think from my side? I will be monitor with a webcam for 9 hours and im the one who suffering and upset. No one cared. I see why I want to be single and alone. Just to avoid arguments and drama. More freedom.

I'm tired and I'm sick. My voice changed.
I hope I can find myself somewhere. I hope I can find my courage and pride back.
This is the longest saddest blog I ever written. I hope I can overcome this by tomorrow.